It has been more than a year. I haven’t written anything worthwhile. Even if I did, I didn’t upload it.
I am a writer. I always was. I write when I feel sad. I write when I feel anxious. Writing calms me down.
Writing has an amazing way to putting things in perspective. And I always write them down when I feel like a lot of things are happening all at once. I always used writing as a tool or as a way to keep me sane.
Then, Why haven’t I kept up with my blog?
5 years ago.., when I started writing I know that no one was looking. I started writing a PERSONAL blog which implies that I am putting out personal information and opinions out there for the world to see.
Is it good? It never is… Isnt it?
It is one of the many reasons people ask you to take down your FB profile. You never want your personal things out there.
Well, that’s a concern. But, I told myself. I am not putting pictures. I am just talking as a guy in his 20s trying to figure out life. I am not going to give them details of my family or where I live. I thought I should be Fine.
Later I realised, I have a problem that was a lot different.The People who read my blog are the people I write about.
It kind of contradicts my Notion of sending out “Anonymous words of what is happening in a man’s life, for the world to see.”
They all know me. And they all read mine because they know me. They all know what I am going through and sometimes, a slightly different version of it.
This defeated the purpose.This is why I never wanted to write even though I had reasons to.
But Now, I think different.
I read a blog that had a title that read, “What does it mean to be a ‘Man’..
It was a personal blog as well about a guy who wrote the ten things that he thought every men should do. He also insisted that it was just his belief and it could be altered to suit needs.
One of it was this.
“Be yourself and Do not ever apologize for it (unless you are a dick).”
This made me change my decision. I live in a world filled with opinions and advice. Every single day, I listen to people tell me how to live my life. I see that many are opiniated and refuse to see the other side. I, right now, live among a lot those people.
I see they take their opinions too seriously than I have ever did.
I think It is time I stop worrying about offending people and start talking.
So.. as my title says.. “This is a new beginning and I am going to keep posting a lot.”
The Captive Caprice 